Buried at the center of my photo album are 4 photos -Amy, Julie, Lisa and I – all about 15 years old – breasts bare. My mother came out with a camera while we were sunning on my back deck and snapped some pictures. The photos are a testament to lovely teenage breasts and days gone by. Amy’s breasts are high and flat like fried eggs. Julie’s are more banana shaped with a turned up end. Lisa and I both have the same breasts – large, heavy, and round with large nipples – although her nipples are darker in color. In all the photos we are laughing. Amy is coyly covering one breast in mock shame. Lisa is smoking a cigarette with the sun in her eyes. Julie is stretched in a lawn chair with an arm thrown over her face. And I am arched to the camera – my breasts pushed towards the sky.

I have always disliked my breasts from day one. Even as a teenage I always wished they were firmer, higher, smaller, perkier. Looking back - over 15 years - at a photo of my darling breasts I realize how wrong I have been. Those breasts ARE firmer and rounder and higher and smaller and perkier than my breasts are now. They were absolutely lovely – like two pieces of ripe fruit. How tragic to realize that I had incredible tits and that I never appreciated them at their peak. Had I known how they would age I might have shown them to the world instead of hiding them under layers all those years.

I guess it’s all a matter of perspective. Men seem to really like my breasts but I have major breast issues. Mostly I dislike my tits when they are bare – they are saggy and to me they feel too soft - deflated. The only time that I like really like them is when I stand in front of the mirror and hold my arms above my head. Suddenly my breasts are high and perky and have some of their previous glory.

Maybe I should take a picture of my breasts at 30 so that I can look back on it in 15 years. Perhaps by then I will be able to appreciate how they look today. Perhaps at 45 I’ll look back at my 30 year old breasts and realize that I had a terrific rack.

All Personal Breast photos by Robyn Eden.