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In
the seventh grade, my best friend whispered to me that I needed
a bra. I remember looking down at my chest--or at least where
it was supposed to be--and wondering if they made anything small
enough.
But, because I wanted to fit in, and mostly because I wanted
to be able to show off my white straps in the girls locker room,
I begged my mom for one. It was beige, completely uncomfortable,
and somehow managed to make me even more flat-chested than I already
was.
As if my late blossoming boobs weren't enough to make me feel
ostracized, my beautiful blond Swedish mother never ever wore
a bra. She'd come get me after school, clad in trendy tops and
tight-fitting pants, nipples moving freely beneath her satin or
cotton blouses. I was mortified, and swore that I would never
ever be so embarrassing.
The years moved ahead, I grew and grew, finally got my period,
but my silly womanly curves refused to appear. I even decided
to follow Judy Blume's advice and tried all those exercises designed
specifically to encourage a young girl's bust to grow.
Nothing worked.
A decade later, my breasts are still the same size they were
in my early teens. But now, though I never would have dreamed
it then, I love them. They're tiny and perky and deliciously sensitive
to weather, my moods, and anyone's touch. They're light on most
days, and sometimes with a little "time of the month"
help, they make me feel darn right voluptuous. I rarely wear a
bra--my mom, it seems, was right all along--and when I do, it's
only to accentuate the firm curves that sit beneath my shirt.
It took a while, but I finally made it. I can honestly say I
love my breasts. Miranda Rijks, where are you now? I'll bet yours
are sagging.
    
     
All Personal Breast photos by Robyn Eden.
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